"I wasn't always in love with Colton Calloway; I was in love with his younger brother, Kyle, first.”This book was the absolute saddest "f"ing book I've ever READ!!!! Let me repeat myself.......THE SADDEST book I've EVER read!!!!! This book is going to be very hard for me to review because honestly, I don't like sad books....at ALL!!! So I'm going to start with a general description and then I will get to my feelings on this book.This book is about Colton and Nell. In the beginning Nell was young, a 16 year old girl, and in love with Kyle but that came to a crashing halt due to a fatal freak accident. Nell being a child herself had a very difficult time dealing with this because not only was Kyle her boyfriend but he had also been her best friend since they were children. Colton was Kyle's older brother, he left home after high school due to expectations that he couldn't meet or decided that he wasn't going to meet and made a life of his own on NYC.They meet for the first time at Kyle's funeral and they both recognize something in each other....but they aren't quite sure what that is.“But Colton is…I’m safe with him. He draws the truth out of me. He draws the pain out of me. Colton knows pain. He’s intimately familiar with it. Lives with it. Guilt too.”So they meet again accidentally in NYC, Colton is a musician and he plays for the love of music not the money and Nell just happens to see him playing in Central Park...and that's when THEIR story begins.It's a painful story on both their parts and painful for totally different reasons. They do eventually bare all their emotional baggage to one another..one sad story at a time. They end up being each others true solace and it's beautiful watching it unfold........IF you like sad books!! It really is beautiful watching them heal each other and the music ends up being their escape.“We understand each other, Nelly. We’ve both lost someone we love. We both have scars and regrets and anger. We can do this together."“...you have to be okay. You have to let yourself heal and move on. You’re stuck in the moment of his death, right now. Locked into a cycle with no way out. You have to break the cycle."My ThoughtsLet me start this by saying that this is a great book for people who enjoy THIS kind of book. The book it's self is wonderful, great story line, great characters.....I'm just the WRONG person to read it! I hate sad ass books..........and this is a tear jerker!Ok enough I'm done.........this book was sad.......sad as hell!!!!!! Nothing and I mean NOTHING went right for these two people!! When you think of a sad book you hope that maybe, just maybe in the end something will work out........and I guess one thing did for them BUT that's ALL.....one thing!!!!! Some of the book didn't even make sense to me because of the high profile careers their parents had...now I know it's fiction and if you write it well enough I don't care if aliens are buying milk at a gas station but if not...it bothers me! This particular thing bothered me, really bad!!! I'm going to stop now because part of my issue is I don't like this type of book but I will say that the book was good and I can understand why MANY people enjoyed it, however it just wasn't the book for me. That being said I gave it 3 stars because of personal preference but if you like this style of book 4-5 stars definitely! I'm not even going to tell you who recommended this book to me....but you know who you are woman!!!!! This book to me, was her Cam...just so you know:)))))))I'm glad I read this book because I know life's not always about roses and rainbows....there is pain and suffering.......but damn!!!!!I'm done.............READ it you may LOVE it!!!!!!!